June 9, 1959
(Letter to Mother from Satprem)
Rameswaram, June 9, 1959
Forgive me for these last letters. I was suffering.
It seems to me that for months I have been far away from you. I no longer see you in my dreams, I no longer feel you. What, then, is this path I am following?
In spite of all my revolts, I need you, I need truth, Light, and love. I feel I have already known all this, had all this, and that I have been dispossessed. Perhaps that is why I suffer.
Mother, lead me towards you, I am blind and without strength.
Thursday, June 11, 1959
Satprem, my very dear child,
I have received your good letter of the 9th. It warms my heart.
All these things that you need – truth, light, love, my presence in you – you have had them and you still have them, they have not withdrawn from you, but something came to veil them from your perception, and this is why you became unhappy. They are waiting just there, near you, in you, anxious for the shadow to vanish and for you to realize that they have not left you.
With all my love.